Find me there!

Shit has been… hard the past few weeks. Stupid life shit that I really don’t know how to deal with and I think I may just be going insane. I don’t want to feel like this any more and it all keeps building up.

Been spending lots of time with Lisa and that’s been cool for the most part, but I am tired and I’m really starting to need sometime to my self. I’m not sure why, probably because of all the other shit that goes along with it.

I have to get the boy registered for school still and the school system is making it a complete pain in the butt. I have gone up their twice now and NO ONE has been there, even though they said they would be. Fun.

I also need to come up with 30 bucks to pay to have my licentiate renewed before the 9th and I end up having to take my test all over again.

My idiot ex has decided that he has “mental problems” so he doesn’t have to pay child support and I cannot do anything about it.

I am still waiting for my money from the school and it still has not been credited to my account. My financial aid adviser seems to be a flake and I am starting to worry.

Nothing is working out the way it should.

Good things though, we took the kids to COSI and the natural history museum. It was also of fun. COSI kind of sucks now, there’s not a lot to do and way to many people are there. The NHM had a lot more and less people.

We also got to see the Extreme Makeover Home that is being worked on this week in Beavercreek. n_n That was pretty neat too.

Item list:

Ancient Katana x2

Black Midnight Sweet Lace Shoes

Studded Leather Collar

Nitemare Headband

Raider Shih’s Garment x4

Item List:

Chuchip’s Blessing

Aqua and Blue Reversible Hair Pins

Aqua Bubbles Tankini Bottom

Light Bark Tank Warmers

Casual Baby Blue Sneakers

Aqua and Blue Reversible Bracelets

Diapered Egg

Item List:

The Mole

Lovely Genie Yellow Belly Gem

Chuchip’s Blessing

Lex’s White Gloves

Nartian Rock

Lovely Genie Gold Arm Bangle x2

Lovely Genie Gold Bracelets x2

Lovely Genie Double Gold Earrings

Picolitrosso’s Urn

Pure White Sweet Lace Rockinghorse Shoes

Gold Pocket Watch

Egyptian Gold Anklet x2

Feel free to use these if you like them. <3

]]> http://poisonposie.wordpress.com/2009/07/04/dream-avatars/feed/ 0 lolliofthearmy http://poisonposie.wordpress.com/2009/07/03/the-difference-between-jealousy-and-envy/ http://poisonposie.wordpress.com/2009/07/03/the-difference-between-jealousy-and-envy/#comments Fri, 03 Jul 2009 21:29:39 +0000 Lolli http://poisonposie.wordpress.com/2009/07/03/the-difference-between-jealousy-and-envy/ ]]> Jealous-

1. (3) covetous, envious, jealous — (showing extreme cupidity; painfully desirous of another’s advantages; “he was never covetous before he met her”; “jealous of his success and covetous of his possessions”; “envious of their art collection”)

2. (2) jealous, green-eyed, overjealous — (suspicious or unduly suspicious or fearful of being displaced by a rival; “a jealous lover”)

Envy-

1. (2) envy, enviousness — (a feeling of grudging admiration and desire to have something that is possessed by another)

2. envy, invidia — (spite and resentment at seeing the success of another (personified as one of the deadly sins))

1. (9) envy — (feel envious towards; admire enviously)

2. envy, begrudge — (be envious of; set one’s heart on)

Princeton Wordnet

I guess it’s all just interpretation. To me jealousy more of the last definition, jealousy is that nagging voice or that icky feeling that makes you think things are going on when they really aren’t.

I am so bored. D: S I decided to go mess with the fail blog and the LOL cats and I found the LOL Bulider. xD Captioning fun for all ages…

On top of that, I start programming in two weeks, do you really think I am going to want to be on Gaia when I could be learning how to make something that’s my own?

So could you please stop making such a big deal about it?

I haven’t been on MSN because I have been downloading some stuffs and doing compoter maintenece stuffs and MSN eats bandwith in retarded amounts.

YOU COULD BE A COMPLETE DICK HEAD TO YOUR FRIENDS AT TIMES, BUT YOU WERE ALSO A FUNNY MAN WHO TOOK HIS JOB YELLING AT PEOPLE SERIOUSLY AND I HAVE A LOT OF RESPECT FOR THAT.

MY SYMPATHY GOES TO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY, YOU HAVE LEFT THEM FAR TOO SOON.

P.S. I HOPE NO ONE CHUMS THE WATERS YOU MAY BE SWIMMING IN. ;D

We went for a walk this morning. The kids wanted to go to the park, but its hot and humid icky Ohio weather. Its supposed to cool down this weekend so maybe then. I do feel a lot better since I have been walking more. Less tired and less ittitable. n_n

I have 3 weeks of classes left. I can’t wait until my current ones are over… as I think I have said many times now. I just really want my check. D: I have a few things I need to get for school and my oldest needs a new computer for school (the hard drive ate shit on hers and just cycles instead of starting and won’t run restore or install an OS).

Today I have decided that I am going to start a new photoblog for the pics I take and have taken… If I can find them in my photobucket that is. xD And fill up my massive MP3 player.

I am going to try my hardest to make this a SF worthy post.

1.) The user base of the site has gone down hill. The targeting of MySpace and Facebook users has led to a userbase of people who don’t read the rules, spam, scam, beg, bot and text talk. Its hard for me to find a discussion there that isn’t half brain dead, unless of course its a SF reg thread. The sad thing about it is that my Gaia life consists of complaining and saying no to moar gold and gold to GC treads.

Gaia, you should be concentrating on finding worth while users, ones who aren’t going to break the rules and spam like there is no tomorrow. You should be looking at what appeals users to go to the 50 other avatar sites, the ones who don’t have a spam box and promote actual conversation. These sites, are where your users are going…

You also need to gain control over the GD and not bend the rules because you no longer wish to deal with it. Yes, it is a compromise, but at the same time you are only showing them they they don’t need to follow the rules.

Just the like, you cannot leave it up to the users to take an active interest in reading the TOS and the Rules of the site and forums. You need to include these things in the new user quest, it will lead to better informed LONG TERM USERS.

Further more the addition of the 18+ forum would probably peak my interest in Gaia. I think this addition is a step in the right direction in helping the site grow with an aging userbase.

2.) You’ve sucked the fun out of my avatar. Thanks for that, really. It was the only thing I kept coming back for. I loved buying things for my avatar, but I do not love your RIG. When I asked for things I want to spend my money on I was told by dev’s and users that it wouldn’t happen because you wouldn’t make as much money. Consequently, this means my opinion and wishes mean nothing unless its making you money.

I don’t even know what to say about this. Gaia is a business and needs to make money, even needs to make profit, but really guys when you are discounting users wishes just to make money it’s bad. Do you really care about your users any more, or really has it just become about the money?

At one point, I defended your actions even when you made stupid decisions. I feel like you have made me a liar and on top of that you have taken advantage of my willingness to help you out.

You are not giving your users a choice. It is buy this RIG or the cash shop items that have been in there for a better part of a year (with the exception of a few). Where is the choice in that? There is none. Period. Its if you want new items you HAVE to buy these RIGs. What about those who don’t like the RIGs? Oh, I get it now, fuck us; we aren’t giving you ENOUGH money.

You can’t tell me that this isn’t correct. Its been stated by DEVELOPERS, moderators and users alike.

I wanted to spend money on this site, but as a CUSTOMER (since we aren’t donating any longer, as you have stated) I feel I should have a choice, not buy this because its all you get. It is bad business and bad customer service, I don’t care what Mr. Business Degree says.

My feedback on this is making money is good, but making money at the expense of your users happiness will only lead to ruin. Even if something doesn’t make as much money as you want it to does not mean that it is something that should not happen.

With out your users and their money, where would you be, Gaia?

3.) Appreciation for what the users of this site do for you, more specifically your moderators. I rarely if EVER see a administrator or a developer stand up for the mods, it irks me. They do what they do for free and take crap from BOTH sides. They are the ones doing all the crap that you don’t want to deal with or PAY some one to deal with. You should show your appreciation a little more.

4.) The community. Ah, I miss that feeling, but it sailed away long ago. I left you for a year, thinking I was just burn out and tired and came back to find the same emptiness and let downs that where there plus some. The community, which was once the soul of the site has been replaced with pay for items and flash games, things that take little to no participation in the forums.

The gold grant tweaks were a good start, but so far all they have led to is complaining and spam.

As stated above the addition of the 18+ would make me a little happier and feel like I belong there again.

Most of the developers on the site I adore, however, there are some that make you look terrible and say things that make the users feel insignificant. These are things that should not be happening and should no be tolerated by the administration, and steps need to be taken to correct these actions.

5.) Item outsourcing? Seriously, at first impression I thought this was just strictly sponsor items, but after watching the video I see that it was used for the Celebrity Snare, which judging by the lack of updates was less than successful. These things make me feel like you have really lost touch with your users interests and I think you need to spend a little more time with in your community and listen to what the people in the SF are asking for (well beyond items, mind you).

This place and from what I understand other places make items at a low cost for sites like Gaia. What I really have trouble wrapping my head around is why it hasn’t been utilized for creating items you have designed for the cash shop.

I degress, much of this is rudimentry feedback. Things I wish you would have done, and think you should still do.